At UFC 193, Ronda Rousey was handed the first loss of her professional MMA career at the hands of Holly Holm in the form of a 2nd round head kick KO. Some time after the loss, Rousey explained that she briefly felt suicidal while backstage after the loss.

Now, nearly 6 months following the loss, Rousey was named as one of Time Magazine’s “100 Most Influential People”. During an interview for the article, Rousey became emotional as she explained that she is still grieving the loss.

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